Meeting With My Now Married Ex-boyfriend is Never a Good Idea

Not for the reasons you imagine, it's not the innocent mouth kiss hello and good bye, or the fact that he's married. It's because he is still in college football player shape, dresses impeccably, has great conversation skills, English tea caliber table manners, picks the best restaurants and always pays the bill without hesitation. I did notice this meeting that his teeth had dulled slightly from 19 year old super star white to a mere really really white. They were still perfectly straight. He has always had the freshest breath, nicest smile, the type of things you take for granted. You don't realize that one day you'll go out on a date with Mr. breath not so fresh, teeth kind of gray. Life lets you down that way.

For days "S" will not be enough for me. His teeth are extremely straight and white, but his table manners and conversations skills just don't match up with married ex. Last night, only 6 hours after having been seated at a cozy table in the garden of an upscale Italian restaurant, I was now seated in a window at a midtown dive. The rapt attention I held at lunch, the conversation so easy, the excitement, none of it was there. Earlier, I had felt adored, now I wondered if "S" wouldn't rather be at the next table sitting with these 2 low grade bimbos he seemed to have glanced at one too many times for my comfort. I suggested "S" spend the night at his own apartment. He did end up coming to mine, and everything was nice, but still changed.

Meeting with my ex-boyfriend who is far more successful than I ever imagined he could be, is just not good for me. It's life at it's cruelest. I never thought that highly of him in the years we dated. I never thought that history would hold him as the best looking guy I ever called boyfriend. I was sure when I passed on him, that there were plenty better guys out there for me. I was confident I would end up with someone far better than him, no question.

I was wrong.