Lame and bizarre email from my previous boyfriend/fiancee, current stalker and serious loser.
Synopsis: I went to a foreign country, met a boy, fell in love, fell out of love. What I thought was a semi-mutual breakup has turned into a one sided unrequited email stalking. Seriously. He continues to email me weekly although I have not responded to him since March.
received 7/27/06. (the note is completely unedited,I even left in the boring parts and typos)
To: Me, From: Him
subject: vacation people and on arguments
i was planning to have my annual vacation in early sep.
but like last year i suddenly feel tired again.
last year I met you, for almost half a year I lived with the thought of you in my mind.
recently i was on a business trip to Kayseri, somewhere in middle anatolia (the name comes from Kaiserium which is a derivation of the word Caeserium-- and you're smart enough to know what it means...) anyway that's not the point.
the point there is our dealer's nephew there is going to get married on this friday...he was complaining about his prolonged engagement...he said that there were so many arguments that they were having at the moment...
in the end he said it was a better idea to get merried asap and let the issues be solved as these two people get to know each other better undera tighter bind.
anyway, I just sat down like a good boy and listened silently.
i heard this from so many people.
and in the end this happened to me.
if I stayed there, I know that I could have sorted out our issues. very stupid ones indeed. but anyway that was not meant to happen that way. one cannot beat his destiny. i'm still shocked in some way though...
well...one thing's for sure...one day these disturbing self confession type of mails will end,too, but that will not mean that I was able to forget you. That I cannot do. My grey file, with our pics inside, lies3 out there on my desk untouched. I can't find the power to hide it away. It just is there.
one day...perhaps after a long while...one day perhaps your disappointment towards me ceases, perhaps one day we can sit down, only for an honest coffee, and talk.
a.
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2 comments:
To stalk or be stalked??? That is the question....we've all been on both ends!!!You have to feel for this guy on some type of level!!! You touched his life so deeply!! He just bared his soul to you V!!! Love it!!!!!
Makes me wish for the days that I was stalked. But a little thing called marriage prevents me from stalking outright so I am left with day dreaming and living vicariously through V. She is my hero!!!
xoxox D
Not sure I touched him so deeply. It's probably more of a "How dare that american peasant girl reject me!! She doesn't even have a masters degree. I will never understand and I vow to question her via email forever or until a better more futuristic communication method is invented."
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